The Tug of War with Inadequacy

The Tug of War with Inadequacy

I am inadequate.

That’s not something you see people admit very often. That’s something we pretend we don’t feel, yet somehow it bubbles to the surface more often than any of us would like to admit.

I am inadequate.

We say this, and people jump up and say, “No, you are not! You are more than enough. You are strong. You aren’t weak.”

Except. I am inadequate. You are inadequate.

On our own.

By ourselves, we are inadequate. We will never measure up to God’s standards. We will never measure up to the world’s standards. We aren’t enough. No matter how hard we try, we will only ever find ourselves failing in some way, shape, or form.

On our own.

But.

Those of us who have answered the call to be God’s people are never on our own. We have someone greater in us that makes up for our inadequacies, gives us strength, and makes us more than we can ever be on our own.

We have the Holy Spirit in us. Jesus himself admitted to the disciples that it was better for them to have the Holy Spirit with them than it was for him to be here on Earth with us. (John 16:7)

We have the power of the One who calmed the sea inside of us.
We have the power of the One who brought Jesus back to life inside of us.
We have the power of the One who created the entire universe simply by speaking a word inside of us.

Suddenly, my feelings of inadequacy seem shallow and selfish and silly when I think about it. What does it matter what people think of me? I have God inside of me. He is the only one I should be concerned about what he thinks of me. And, here’s the thing: God knows everything about me. He made me. He knows where I fall short and where I struggle far better than even I know because at times, I refuse to pay attention to it.

I want to be adequate all on my own, but that’s just not possible. I am imperfect because I’m not God. No one is perfect except him. Even with the Holy Spirit inside me, I am still in there too. Typically, I try to fight my way to the surface instead of letting God do his work and work in and through me. I forget that I am inadequate until I try to do something on my own and it fails or I feel awkward and realize I can’t do it by myself. I need God.

I am inadequate.
On my own.
But I am not alone.
I have the Holy Spirit.
Therefore, when I admit that I am weak and inadequate on my own, God can show up within me and do mighty works.
And suddenly, I am not inadequate.
I am God’s beloved child and I am enough because he loves me.

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